4w1d

Here we go again. I just read my posts from July/August, at 4w2d. Is this time going to be different? I truly hope so.

Last Saturday (Christmas Day) was the first time ever that I got lightheaded during any of my pregnancies. I almost passed out in the church, felt so dizzy and weak. My BBs are also pretty darn sore, which is very reassuring. I keep touching them at least every 5 minutes. I hope noone is observing me here at work or they will think I am some perv! lol! I also have AF-like cramps here and there. Not much, but noticeable.

I do feel good about this pregnancy. I know bad thoughts will come but I hope I will be able to overcome them. Third time is a charm; I will hold my baby in September or maybe even earlier!

BTW, I read somewhere something that made me feel really positive. One girl on the board believes that with multiple miscarriages it is one and the same baby soul that is trying to get to our world, only in different times and different pregnancies. I thought it was very nice. It made the loss be a little less of a loss, just postponing. So I have decided that if we have a girl, we will name her Nora, the name we picked when I was pregnant the first time. Oh baby Nora, I love you already! We still don't have a name for the boy though.

On a different note, our bathroom is not ready yet. It was supposed to be ready by last Thursday or Friday, before Christmas. But it wasn't. I knew it wouldn't and insisted on doing some most crucial things, like installing the toilet and sink. The toilet got installed (thank goodness we don't have to run down two flights of stairs any more) but the sink didn't. Actually the sink is installed but the water is not connected yet. So we wash our hand in super hot or super cold water in the bathtub (the faucet is not installed there yet either). Everything is going so slow. The guy, bless his heart, is working hard but he is such a bad planner! And he refuses to admit that! Whenever I create any kind of plan, he blows it by not showing up for a few days and then the whole plan is out of whack again. It makes me so angry! He also doesn't think before doing. He installed some of the tiles wrong (the ones I didn't give him particular detailed instructions), measured cubbies in the wall wrong and now they are different sizes, installed sink faucet without checking the size of the pipes and now has to struggle to find the fitting. Ugh, it's so frustrating! HE called me this afternoon (after about 5-6 hours of work) that he didn't make much progress because he had to go to Home Depot three times. The Home Depot that is 3 minutes from his home and about 25 minutes from mine! WTF? Can't you measure twice and cut once? Check for everything before you go to Home Depot! Go second time only if you have to. And NEVER go three times, it's a waste of time! Work on something else, something that doesn't require the stuff from HD and pick up the stuff on your way in next day! Out of the 6 hours that he was in my house, about 3 hours were wasted for the HD trips.

Deep breath! It's only a few more days and the bathroom will be done. :)

One more thing. I told one friend, K. They are TTC their first too, just started last month. She is much younger though (she's not even 30 yet!) so I don't expect them to have much trouble. Although she did tell me long time ago, when we both were sort of drunk, that she has some kind of condition (I don't remember what though) that will probably make it quite difficult. I was hoping we would get pregnant before them though (c'mon, we've been trying for 2 years already!) although I really hope she/they won't have to go through any of what I/we have. Hope we both are pregnant at the same time and have babies close to each other. It would make it so much more fun!

Long post today. :) Got to go. Meeting friends for dinner tonight. It's actually DH's former roommate who is getting married on September 17th in Boston, MA. If all things go right, we won't be able to go. Or at least I won't. But DH said he wouldn't leave me with a 2-week old by myself, he is such sweetheart! I better go because he called me already and is probably waiting for me by the elevators! :)