7 weeks 2 days

I am spoiling myself. :) Had 2 cups of raspberries and blueberries with drinkable vanilla yogurt for breakfast. Actually fro second breakfast. I tend to wake up much earlier than usually those days, partially because I am usually asleep by 10.30 PM. So I wake up about 6-6.30, stay in bed till 7 or so and go for a run. Except today I was so hungry, that I had cereal before my run. For the record - not necessary a good idea to eat before you run. About half way into my run I realized that I needed to go to the bathroom really bad, so that was the end of my run... :)

7 weeks 1 day

It's 9.15 am. I am feeling sick. And hungry.

It was a tough weekend, but next one is going to be even tougher. Actually, Saturday was not so bad, as I spend the first half of it in bed. :) Marc had to work and I just couldn't get out of the bed. Read a lot and slept a lot. We had to wake up early on Sunday for our long run. The half marathon is in two weeks and I really want to run it. I don't need to run it all, I am fine running (or rather jogging, as I slowed down to approximately 13-14 min/mil) the first 9-10 miles and walking the rest. Or run-walking the whole thing. I just want to do the distance. That's just me. I know I will be very unhappy if I back out.

It's already almost 5 pm. Strange, I haven't felt like sweets since the day I found out I was pregnant. Well, except for two cases, once when I woke up after my Saturday afternoon nap wanting chocolate, and second time last Saturday, when I ordered dessert at Brian's birthday dinner. But other than that, I did not touch my Polish candy, ice cream, or cookies at work for at least 7 weeks now. Until today. Today I want sweet. Had bunch of Honey Bunch cereal (dry) and felt like peanut butter (that's what's for dinner tonight!). :) And... I had a piece on my Polish "krowka" candy and it tasted gooood! :)

Can't wait to get home and make some strawberries and cream. :)

6 weeks 5 days

Learned about Richard Ferber from Bob. I think I've heard about his methods before and thought they were very rational and would work. I am planning to read about them more and possibly implement in our new baby's life. After reality check, of course.

6 weeks 4 days - Back On (Running) Track

I am running again. I run 9.5 mil on Saturday. Unplanned. First wanted to bike with Marc but then realized that I will be the most unhappy if I don't do the race on Labor Day. I can walk it, or crawl it, but I have to do it. So I decided to run. Since my last long run before I knew I was pregnant was 11 mil (a day before I knew, to be exact) and given that I didn't really run much since then, I thought I should easily do 8-9 mil. I didn't take the fancy watch to see how fast I'd run on purpose, so I don't get tempted to speed up. I decided to jog, all relaxed, and run/walk if necessary. The first mile I ran with Marc and it wasn't too good, as the first mile usually is. Then I got to my peace and was enjoying the run. I took my iPhone just in case, so I though, why not try to run with music? :) I run to Jack Johnson and it was awesome. :)

5 weeks 5 days - First Ultrasound

Got the ultrasound! The lady, a very nice one, said at 5w5d she doesn't expect to see much. But we saw the yolk sack and the yolk! No embryo yet though. She said to come back next week and we'll hear the heartbeat for sure. But I think we are just gonna wait till our next appointment. The pain turned out to be ovarian cyst and apparently I have another one on the other ovary as well, although that one is not bothering me. I promised myself not to read any bad stories on the internet, just the happy ones. Stick to the books for an advise and if I absolutely have to go online for an advise - stay on the medical pages and articles rather than the common folk writing. :)

5 weeks 4 days - Freak-Out Two, a major one

Major freak out. I've been having slight pain int he left ovary. A slight pain though, nothing big. It's been like that on and off for 2-3 day now. I went online and, of course, read all the stories about ectopic pregnancy and stuff. Called Marc about 11 AM and told him about my worries and totally freaked out on the phone. Cried like a baby. He went online and read about it too. Tried to convince me that I really had no symptoms of ectopic pregnancy but I was unconvinced. :) He finally suggested to call the doctors. And I did. Still crying, so the woman on the phone thought I was in such pain. They tried to fit me in for an appointment but were not able and told me to go to ER. I finally explained that it's not the pain that makes me cry, it's the unknown and the worry. So she suggested to "take it easy and rest" and go for the U/S the next day. I called the U/S place and made an appointment for 8 AM. I felt better already.

BTW, the blood result from yesterday was 10,221.

5 weeks 3 days - Telling The Boss

I had to tell Bob. He suspected something was going on because I was kinda too sensitive etc. He thought he did something or that I was going to quit! :) I finally told him that Nicolas will have a friend to play with. :) He said he suspected one of the two: I was pregnant or quitting. :)

I feel fine. A bit of nausea in the morning and when driving to the doc. Sore boobs, more sore every hour. I did notice that I don't feel like sweets any more. More salty. I chose pretzels over cookies! Unbelievable!

5 weeks 2 days

Tender breasts. Little nausea probably after prenatal vitamin. Nurse called and asked me to go for another blood test tomorrow. The Friday one showed Hcg at 823mUi, which she considers a bit low. I think it is fine, since the Tuesday one (at the beach) was 114mUI. Which means it more than doubled during the 48 h. But I am happy to go. I'll do anything that can make me feel more pregnant! :)

Called Renata Singer on the way back from work. She asked me straight in my face if I was pregnant yet, so I told her. She won't tell anyone as we don't have common friends, so it is safe. :) Went for a run as I was talking to her. Did 30 min easy jog, probably same speed as usually. It was hot but I felt great!

5 weeks 1 day - Freak-Out One

Freaked out at night that my mom is sick and needs help and my sis is not there. Cried like a baby and called her at 5 AM their time! She didn't pick up (as she was sleeping like a normal person) but it made me feel better.

4 weeks 6 days - Telling the Parents

On the way to drop of Agnieszka and Dawid to the airport we called my Mom. Dad was away, so unfortunately we couldn't tell them both at the same time. Mom picked up and, luckily, was on the other phone (cell) with Dad at the time. :) I told her that we were on the way to the airport and said that Marc wanted to tell her something. I gave Marc the phone and he said slowly and clearly: "Dzien dobry. Bedziemy mieli dzidziusia." I grabbed the phone back as I wanted to hear her reaction. She was repeating to Dad: "Tadek, Tadek, Marc said >bedziemy mieli dzidziusia!<" she screamed.

Later that night we had dinner with Marc parents. Went to a seafood restaurant with Marc's parents and brother. Sat outside as the inside was really smokey. Unfortunately there was another table full of half-drank people right next to us, which was spoiling the mood. We didn't want to announce the big news just so the other people start laughing obnoxiously. Waited for about 30 minutes and they left. I don't rememeber how exactly Marc started, but he basically told Mom and Dad that they were going to be Grandparents. They seemed very happy, and not too surprised. :) I think Brian was happy to find out that he was gonna be an uncle too.

4 weeks 5 days - Letting the secret out

Went to work but couldn't concentrate. Talked with Bob some and told him that I have an emergency orthodontist appointment at 3.30 because one of my brackets fell off. He told me to go on home and spend the last hours with Agnieszka, as she is leaving tomorrow. :)

Went there. Marc called me on the way that the little car is low on coolant and he has to stop. I told him not to worry as I was sure they would only draw my blood, plus I wasn't even seeing the doctor. I got there and saw a midwife. A nice lady but totally not prepared to talk to me. Couldn't really answer any of my questions very well. Kind of undecided and always referring me to the brochures.

When I got home, Aga noticed the band-aid on my arm and asked what happened. I told her that the doctor had to draw my blood. Of course she asked why, so... I told her. :) She started crying and hugged me very very hard. :) Congratulated both of us and hugged Marc. I know she was as happy as we were. She asked if she could tell Dawid and we agreed. She ran, all in tears, downstairs to tell him. When he saw her crying he freaked out! He thought something bad has happened! Poor thing almost got a heart attack!

We decided to tell my parents tomorrow, when Agnieszka and Dawid are on a plane on the way home, so my Mom would have something else to think about rather than worrying about them.

4 weeks 4 days - Confirmed

Called the doctor's - the results confirmed! I am, indeed, pregnant! Still can't believe it! Called my doctor to reschedule the appointment but they still wanted me to come in on Friday and do some more extensive blood tests. Decided with Marc that we would tell my sister before she leaves to go home, so she can hear the news personally. We will do it on Saturday, right before she leaves. Going home tonight.

4 weeks 3 days

Too tired to run, again. Marc and I went for a long bike ride though. Called the doctor's office but no results. Will call tomorrow.

Had dinner with the Muellers. Ordered virgin Mohito, which looks totally like a regular one. No suspicions.

Checked my messages at the dinner (since I finally had a signal there) in the evening and there was one from the doctor's office! Left at 11 AM! So they already did have my results, the lady who I spoke with must have not known what she was doing! Got pretty upset but promised to call early next morning.

I got iced tea that I was planing to use instead of tea infused vodka to make my drink look like one with alcohol. :)

4 weeks 2 days - Doctor's Office

Marc went to surfing class and I, as soon as possible, jumped in the car and went back to the doctor's. There must be someone there who can see me! About 2 hours later I had band-aid on my arm. They are supposed to call me tomorrow or the day after with the results. Time never was going slower... Fortunately the nurse drawing my blood was very gentle and didn't leave a bruise. I took my band-aid off before I got back and nobody was suspicious. Had a couple of virgin Pina Coladas that night. Fortunately everyone was used to me making them and they weren't suspicious.

4 weeks 1 day - Is it true?

Did another cheap test this morning - same result: almost pink line. Got on a bike and went to Rite Aid to get a digital test. Spoke with my parents on the way back, didn't mention anything. Did the digital test as soon as I got back. Marc was already awake. I came out of the bathroom and said that we have about 3 minutes before we find out. Walked back in when the time came. Saw the test... it was positive but I didn't want to give it up. Came back and showed Marc the test with a big fat YES+ on it. "What does it mean?" he asked. "It means YES, I am pregnant!" I said with a huge smile on my face! We could not believe it! We are so happy! After the six months it happened! But we didn't want to tell anyone yet. Now, my challenge is how to not show that I am not drinking.

After a long time on the internet I found out that sometimes home pregnancy tests can show false positive if there is trace of blood in urine. Since my recent UTI I was almost sure this was it. So I wanted to do the blood test ASAP. Since we were not going to be back home until Thursday late night I made appointment with my doctor for Friday. But it's only Monday! How will I survive until Friday?! We got in the car and drove to a health center in OBX. Unfortunately they were not able to do any blood work without doctor's request. And I there wasn't a doctor there who could see me. :( Oh well, I'll have to wait till Friday.

It's Maurice's birthday today. I promised Erin that I would go with her to pick up a cake for him. The plan was to get a cake from "the rest of us". We already purchased a card a day before. Although I was so out of it and thinking only about the thing that's possibly growing inside my belly, I totally dropped the ball and let Erin pay for the cake. :( What a mess!

Ordered a glass of vine with dinner and sipped 2-3 sips. My excuse was that the food was sooooo good and I was already too full to drink it... They bought it!